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Hey... after a long consideration... i've decided to migrate!!!!!!

Yes... migrating to www.meimeiko.multiply.com

It is still under some "renovation"... so keep looking out k?!

Aeroplane`

FINALLY!!!! Finally i'm flying this year!!! almost tot i'm stuck in singapore this yr... no vacation =( ... but God is good... i go for work purposes...


hee.... really blessing leh!!! My co is sending me to HK for training... WOOHOO!!!!! surprise surprise... i thought me so low rank, never get such chances one... besides now, u know la... but my regional CFO actually sends out email indicating me to go, my manager in HK proposed one!!! hahaha....


Blessed are the children of GOD!!!! God knows everything... He knows when is the best time for everything!!!!!


(p/s: thou' last time i said i won't go back HK soon... but hor... free trip who dun wanna??? this time, i'm going disneyland... super ex! but i guess i won't go HK for leisure trip given a choice... hahaha... so this time i'll travel ALONE for the first time... exciting!!! hee...)

continuation...

hmm... where did i stop??? oh ya...

when i manage to let it go... let go all my perceptions, let go of thinking why are things turning out this way, let go of thinking what's in her mind.... i felt so relieved... not totally yet... but at least i dun "peep" at her and what's she doing... (in fear that she writes anything against me, gossip against me)... the day passed smoothly...

finally the day is over... time for CG! exciting... new cg, familiar faces, anointed atmosphere... hahaha... as we were even singing the 2nd praise songs, somehow tears well in my eyes liao... during testimony time... everyone testified on how God's favor was upon each of their lives and how they've obtain man' favor too... it reminded me how much i used to testify on God's & man's favor showering in my life... soon as we enter worship... tears just flow again... hee... this time round, not becos I'm sad or pity-ing myself for whatever that has happened... but really tears of gratitude towards God how He has protected me thru' this week, how God was never too early or late to shower me with His love and assurance that He is always there...

CG sermon this week was on DISAPPOINTMENT... wow... what a timely message, disappointment on things, events and pple... so often our source of disappointment are from people... mostly due to expectations on others... during ministry time, bro isaiah wants to pray for those who are disappointed, going thru disappointments in their lives... i put up my hand... knowing God will do supernatural things, bring encouragement to me... Bro isaiah shared that whenever he is discouraged, down spiritually.. he will always sing a love song to God... when we are able to sing, we are able to lift up our burdens to God...

as i begin to sing, waiting to be laid hands on, i sang... sang a love song to God, sang in the spirit... but softly... suddenly my heart was stirred up... i want to open my mouth and sing "louder"... no words, no melody came out... suddenly tears flow uncontrollably... my heart was so grief... i sob! (yes... sob...) but as i sob, God's presence just saturated the entire living room... suddenly i began to hear God whispering into my ears...

He reminded me of Job (again)... Job encountered discouragements again and again... it didn't end just becos one had happened... I was looking @ my own life... how since i came to this job, since the beginning of this year, how i had to constantly battle with discouragement... how each time when i wanna give it all up, how God picks me up, gives me a word to assure me that everything is going to be ok... how I've battled in this race and give it all i could, only to bring in more discouragement... but God tells me that He knows it, He saw it and He know how pain is it to go thru... but He says HE IS PROUD OF ME... you know... God said that He is proud of me tat i didn't give in to this battle... how many times i could throw in the towel and say i give up... it is too hard... but I hang in there... when i heard that... songs just flow out, melody just flow... at that instance, i found new strength!

hee... then later bro isaiah ask those who haven't been prayed for to raise their hands... hee... i didn't... cos at that point... i felt new strength flowing thru' me... (hee... not because i don't want bro isaiah to pray... )

God is good... God is never late... He knows exactly what's going thru' your lives.. He knows what's your threshold and when it is beyond what you can take it... He will, definitely will bring refuge to you!!

Knowing God...

Last weekend Pastor Tan preached a great msg... something that really caught my attention when he talked about Judas's attitude and mentality before he betray Jesus. He made a foolish decision because he didn't know God!!!

that really caught my attention. Judas was one of the 12 disciples, following Jesus everywhere He goes... how come he don't know God??? But I was truly captivated by what Pastor said.... "you will made foolish decision when you don't know God".


This week had been a really tough week... emotionally.... as I've mentioned in the earlier blogs... it is a tough week cos I constantly in fear that someone will backstabbed me... i kept thinking why must things turn out this way?! Mayb i too paranoid... but to all things, there must be a root to any cause... i was feeling so miserable... but God is good, ALL THE TIME

For my past few years of working, i don't recall that i ever cried in office... on tue, i broke down twice... of cos in the toilet la... embarrassing, but it was really too much to bear... but God was there when no one else was...

when it becomes unbearable, God sents help from my HK's manager to help me clear things up without even me talking abt it, she defines my jobscope and i can see that she stood on my side... when things become unbearable again... I received an encouraging email from SY!

many times when i was so down... i almost made many many foolish decisions... eg, throw in my resignation ltr, confront my "enemy" etc etc... but Praise God, each time when such thoughts come to me, immediately God rebukes that thought... He comforts me whenever He knows it is too unbearable...

Today i finally made my decision, i said a prayer of protection and letting go before i left office. Today was 1st CG, i dun want my emotions to be distracted... so i decided to let God, I'll let go... not easy... but i managed to do it... i managed to shut myself from being influenced by her words, her actions... i just concentrated on my work, focus on my lunch appt and my CG... haha... that really works!!

anyway i'm tired now... lost lots of tears just now... shall continue tmr...


~~ to be continued....

Familiarity + New Anointing

Hey hey.... been blogging abt some negative things lately... forgot to blog abt this!! SUPER IMPT!!!


Lately our zone underwent a round of reshuffling of cg... my CG is one of them.... i guess the major change will be for my CGL bah... she is going to another "zone" to help take a CG, but still under Pastor Derek la...

As for me... i'm separated from my CGL and I'm going to somewhere I'm SUPER familiar with!!! hahaha... no need to guess la... you are RIGHT... i'm going to BRO ISAIAH & SIS KLESS's CG!!!! Yeah! N252!!!

wahaha... somewhere super familiar, will be super comfortable... cos they are both my best childhood friends, i'm Joey's god-mom and they have been my leaders since i started out serving God a decade ago!!!

Comfortable also cos the CG are made up of many pple i know... like kristine, gerald... they are my first CG friends I know when i 1st came to CHC years back... now we back in same CG!! then got xiaoxuan, jacky... they are the 2nd cg friends i know back in N139!! wahahaa.... familiar hor!!!

but most impt, I believe a new cg, a new change will bring about new anointing~~ I'm SURE tmr's cg will be great!!! looking fwd leh!

Other's opinions...

is other pple's opinion abt oneself so important?!!!

Haizz... i'm been so so so upset @ work for the past 3 days... me shall not go into details here... too much...

Frankly speaking, i've been thinkin... am i an unlikeable person? am i an arrogant person?

many pple tell me to "act blur" and close one eye abt the whole thing... i've tried... really! TRIED VERY HARD! but still... i just can't help but to think... what have i done wrong???

At first i was so angry with that person... i've not done anything that step on the toes... i tried so hard not to tell anyone abt this in fear of being known as gossipping... but i couldn't take it anymore, i decided to tell my "twin sister" @ work... of cos i tried to be as netural as possible... and thank God for deciding to say rather to bottle it up... indeed, it helps to untie lots of knots in my heart...

i dunno how will the days ahead be like... but i know God is constantly around me protecting me from any "fiery darts", but i also got to eat a lot of humble pie now... =(

Pray for me ok?!

Sensitive

Those of you who know me well enough knows that I'm a super sensitive person. Good or bad, i dunno...


Good cos' i'm sharp towards those around me, I can detect most things accurately... 80% of the time i'm right!!!


Bad cos I become paranoid!!! you know it is really an agony! sometimes how i wish i can be less sensitive!


today is the 1st working day of the month... haizz... all the busyness aside, what really discourages and disappoints me was my "colleague"... mayb should call "superior". Mayb i'm just overly sensitive or even part of me is too arrogant, that's why i felt so miserable!

perhaps part of me not very willing to "submit" to her, afterall she is not the finance manager mah... but i really dun think that's the point, the feeling tells me otherwise...


haizz... pls really pray for me la... looks like days ahead are not going to be easy...

收获

这地球　能收留　伤心人多久
等着我泪流　用失去衡量拥有
那年头　你温柔　安抚我伤口
然后无怨尤　明知我想走　仍放开手


总是害怕真爱不好找 以为得不到的人最好
好在遇见了你一起终老　能看得到
感动驯服我想逃的双脚 实在的心跳让我明了
懂得珍惜才有收获多少


回过头　把温柔　放在我胸口
你为我加油　让我越自由　越不想走


哪天　当脚步变得沉重
给我一分钟　把泪唤回眼中
哪天　当心虚蠢蠢欲动
抬头看晴空　看见你微笑脸孔

懂得珍惜才有收获多少

a day out...

it has been a long long long time since i had an eventful sat!!

the morning started @ 11am when my dad was @ the door calling my sis to open the door! haha... i jumped up thinking that no one was around to open the door but only to realise that it was 11am already!!! i wanted to go back to sleep cos i slept very late the night before... the moment i'm on the bed, i suddenly recall something horrible!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~


i forgot to run a very very impt program @ work... must do by today, if not come monday it will be very troublesome... haizz.. no choice, drag myself out of bed to go back to office... amazingly my dad told me that i can use the car!!! wahahaha... can drive to work... but parking how?! expensive!! haizz.. dun care... claim back!!!


so i rushed back to office for a short 2 hrs to run that program and do some other work before cg! PC too laggy... ended up a bit late for cg!! thank God... only miss intro to games... hahaha... today had a great cg mtg... perhaps when something is coming to an end, we tend to treasure it more...


anyway it has been a while since i dun have to rush to church after cg... haha... good thing thou'... spend a bit more time with my cg friends, especially got car today...


haha... then suddenly sis lifeng suggested sentosa!! huh??? go sentosa @ 5pm?! do what??? but it was an excellent idea... it has been so long since i went sentosa!!!


so 7 of us squeeze into the MPV and head to sentosa...


sis lifeng say we must behave like a tourist... must go try all the things a tourist will do... hahaha... so now sentosa got this new thing called the skyride... it is like those ski cable seat... so we decided to go try!!! see...




















i must say it is fun... at first quite scary, especially looking down... @ first i dare not take out my phone... hahaha... but it was a relaxing ride, especially during sunset... alec was saying good for pat tok-ing!!! hahaha... so guys... got it?!


then next we head to sakae for dinner.... surprisingly the food was quite good... afterwhich we head to sunset bay to watch a performance by our church's strikeforce. They are performing for an event for sunset bay!! before that, we gals decided to have some fun in the waters!! See lisa & jennifer playing scissors, paper, stone!!









see strikeforce in action?!





next we decided to walk back to the carpark, on the way back we were toking abt our angel & mortal game... i was saying i dunno who my angel is and commented that he/she has to treat me ice-cream! hahah... i tot i dun have any angel mah... cos he/she never give me anything before... identity not disclosed@ all... haha... to my surprise, christopher was my angel!!! hahaha... he ended up treating me ice cream!!! hee... dun extort him... so i only order 1 scoop!! wahahaha...

think that's it?! NO!!!! we later head to marina sq cos alec & lisa wants to bring chris to shopping!!!! hahaha... ya, they are currently chris's fashion consultants!!!! hee...


anyway the day ended at 1130pm... will be going back to sentosa soon again... really miss the sun, beach and sand... most imptly sentosa is so different now!!!

NOKIA N72

see the new photo i've put??? Nice???!!! hee... it is taken by my new HP!!



Yes!!! I bought a new HP!! I know i know... u all gonna say i change again!!!!! ya ya... cos my previous one really CMI liao!!!!



Nice??!!! heee... yES! this is the new N72!!!a pink one!!! Nice right??!! the pink is very gentle... nice... i love it! oh yes... it is NOT 3G by the way... i dun need a 3G anyway... so if u gals like... i dun mind sharing the same phone!! haha... the other color is black... stylish... but i guesss pink is better!!!

a busy day

haizz... today is such a siong day!! actually at first, it was still manageable... but towards the end of the day when the things began to come, i was rushing like mad...



Sometimes i really hate this time of the mth... i really felt that it is so unfair... cos not as if i'm slow... but really... i'm right @ the final back end of the process... i was given all the things so late, yet got to finish them by the end of the day, if not then i got to stay behind... haizz... life is so unfair... yet no one really understands!! i'm beginning to hate my job!!!



sorry... just trying to "destress"... u know i really discover something today... my job requires me to really humble myself... cos i really discover that i know so little... sometimes i can get so proud & refuse to admit i'm wrong, i'm inadequate...


recently i got a new colleague, she is filling up the position that i've been eyeing on... so a part of me was quite "reluntant" to show her the things... and sometimes when she ask a bit more questions, i will be a bit impatient! very bad of me hor... but hor... i suddenly realise that before i can get to that position, there are really so much of things i need to learn!!! my gosh!!!


so u see... God has a better plan than all of us... He knows when we are ready for what... can u imagine the stress i will undergo if i was "push" unto the position i always wanted?! Perhaps it was really better for me... at least now i can just push all the responsibilities away and say "I don't know ah,!!!!" hahaha...